Tuesday, March 30, 2010

I tend to go through these spells in life, where either everybody is calling me and wanting to get in touch with me, and hang out or just entering into my life for whatever reason. Then, other times, I go through periods where nobody really talks to me, nobody reaches out to me, I spend most of my time at home with my family, or on the computer.

Right now, I'm in the latter of the two scenarios laid out. In addition to that, I am completely at peace and okay with it. I don't feel "lame" because I'm not out with friends every night, rather I feel...good, and not stressed out because I have plenty of time to fulfill the obligations I have on me as a Student, as well as an employee and a Christian.

I guess my point in explaining all this is just a testament to the 180 that God can pull in someone's heart if they allow Him to do so. I have always been one to live and die by his friends, spending almost ALL of my time with them, doing whatever it takes to get a laugh or a compliment out of them. I truly believe that in the times where I'm not contacted by my friends, are the times God uses to remind me that ultimately, my only dependency should be upon Him. This was really, really hard for me to learn at first. But as time has progressed, so has the ease with which I have accommodated to said changes. It's a welcome change, and one that I will fully embrace for the Godly man it will lead me to become.

Monday, March 15, 2010

I haven't written on here in quite a while, most of my bloggings have been short, to-the-point scribblings of God, what He's doing, and where I'm at in my walk with Him.

Worship is breaking out everywhere. Every day. Every car ride. Every night we have chapel. Every night in my room. At work. Everywhere. I can't escape it, not that I'd want to.

I'm really truly learning to deal with my problems, and the not-so-easy things that I have to endure to help me bring more Glory to God. I've always run away before, and this is incredibly new to me. I'm trying, and failing, and trying, and failing, but I'm trying a little bit harder every time, and success is slowly creeping up on all the let-downs, and Praise God for that.

I've had a few things on my heart a lot lately, most notably speaking things into existence, and just the phrase "God does good things." That's all He does. Everything He does is good. That's the only thing He's ever done, that's the only thing He's doing, and the only thing He'll ever do.

I've also learned that when people are struggling, I can't just take control or do things myself and fix things for them. I want to. so bad. But I can't. It's God. God has to do these things, because maybe I might do a mediocre job, but He'll do such a good freakin' job, it would make me wonder why I would ever try things my way. I will say this, God is so much better at everything good than I am.
There's a line in a David Crowder*Band song that says "Letting go gives a better grip."

God's doing so much. so much. good things, good things!